From Bad To Worse

It has been more than one months since we were last together ... And from there , things have changed a lot since . I felt a distance between she and I . I felt that she would never understand how I feel here . I just don't know why ... But everytime she made a small mistakes , I would be very pissed off ... Honestly , I don't want to . But I just did . I just felt so without any reasonable reason . It's not fair to her . She is also feeling the pain as I am . But I feel that since I left Penang , I care less of her although I do care about her . To make things worse , she often make small minor mistakes when talking to me , which to be honset , I don't enjoy at all . Besides , recently , I don't know it's either me or her , one of us changed . Differently , somehow or other , we can't really communicate very well lately . For example , just now , I had a conversation with her . She just got home . Just bath . We chat ... Not even 5 minutes later , I am already feeling the tension in the air . I just don't enjoy chatting with her . It's sad to be thinking of that . Because I really really really want to chat nicely and happily with her . However , everytime we chat , everything just gone wrong like that without warning . And most of the time , she never even thought it was her fault . Maybe it was mine . Maybe the both of us have changed since we set apart almost one and a half month ago . She told me she had changed ... Well , I do admit that . But into someone better . I am not sure ... She never hang up my phone back then , but now , it's very common . She is also very keen into raising her voice at me , so do I . Both of us were not like that . She can just leave me and ignore me , which I think is the part destroying our realtionship . What really differentiate her now from her old self is that she can be rude to me when she wants to . She told me many times that she will not be like that anymore . But everytime , there's another time . She is not the soft female that I knew her to be . She is not afraid of me anymore , but could stand against me . She is not a weak female that i want anymore , she is too strong for me . She is just different ... Or is it me that is different ...? Although I really don't want this relationship to end , but my feelings is telling me that it's going to . I can be different for her . But then , I don't think I will ... .. . I think this is it ... .. .