Saturday, November 21, 2009

Relationship Problems? & Minding Your Own Businesee

I believe that every single relationship on earth has the own problem. To me, relationship without problems just arent’s relationship at all. They are simply two person wanting something at the moment of time and ignore each other when they don’t need the other one. In other words, they just care what they want when they want it and they don’t care when they don’t want it. Nevertheless, there are people out there that would disagreewith me. What they agree is that relationship should be perfect, no quarrel and no fighting. Well, I have only a word for these kind of people, bullshit. Even life is full of problem, problems that needed to be solve, that’s the purpose of life. Relationship is part of one’s life, so it must have problems. Those people who couldn’t accept that relationship should have problem are simply ignorant. These ignorant simply don’t want to accept the facts and avoiding them as well as escaping the problem instead of dealing with it.

On the other hand, I want to talk about minding your own business. I have a story, about a pig in a farm. There was also a horse in the farm. One day, the horse fall sick and couldn’t stand up. So, the farmer called the vet to check on him. A series of test is done by the vet and it is found that the horse was infected with serious disease which is fatal. Antidote is being given to the horse and the vet told the farmer that he would come back tomorrow. Besides, he also told the farmer that if the horse couldn’t stand back up after three days, it must be put to sleep. The pig heard about this, and because he doesn’t want the horse to put to sleep, he wants to take things into his own matter to save the horse. What he did is that he ran to the farm where the horse is lying on and told him everything as well as pleeding him to stand up or else he will die. The second day, the vet came and checked on the horse again but found no changes or improvement. Again, the pig beg and pleaded very hard to the horse asking him to stand up to save his own life. Very hard the horse tried but he is too weak to stand up. On the third day, which is the day that the horse will put to sleep if the condition doesn’t improve. The vet came early and checked on the horse for the final time. After doing so, he walked to the farmer and tell him the bad news. The vet said that the horse must be put to sleep if not all the other animals in the farm will be infected. The pig who overheard the conversation rushed to the horse to tell him that they ate going to put him to sleep if he don’t stand up now, it’s now or never. The horse, gather all his strength and put it all on his legs and tried to stand up. He did it ! Finally! The farmer and the vet was very amazed by the miracle. To celebrate this, the pig is sacrificed as food in the party. So, I don’t need to tell you the value of this story, it’s very obvious. If you don’t see it, refer back to the first sentence of this paragraph, it’s the topic sentence.

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Forgetting

It’s been almost a month now since I was back here in PJ. And from the last sem break, I found out that long distance relationship is harder to maintain than I thought it would be. First, final exam came and went and you finally get to go back and meet her. To me, it was very delight. When I was back in Penang, I spent so much of my time with her, so much that one day we can meet each other up to three or four times! We met so frequent until that my parents found out about her. It’s no more a secret right now. Time flies like no other days in that one month. In a blink of an eye, it was time again to come back. Being back for the first week, I found myself in the same condition as when I was here for the first time. The pain that I endured of missing her is too much to bear and to think of this would happen for every single semester did not make things any better.

However, things aren’t getting along lately. We have been arguing again, quite often. I don’t know why, but we seems to have forgotten our promise to each other before all this started from the beginning of my foundation course. As time goes by, slowly, bit by bit, we lost our detailed memories together and can only see each other’s flaws and cons. We started argue of who being wrong and who being right and ended up not speaking to each other. Nowadays, she has a bad habit that really getting my nerve. Whenever she is mad of me, she will switched off her phone so that I couldn’t reach her. I used to do that when I was fed up of her last time, long time ago but I never do it anymore. Maybe she forget the pain she felt when she is unable to reach me. Perhaps, this is the feeling she wants me to feel, hurting me purposely. She once told me that she love me like she never loved anyone before. I really trusted her and believe in what she is trying to convey to me. But on current situations, it is not true anymore. Nowadays, she would have the heart to leave me hurt like that, putting me aside, caring her own feelings. Back then, it was my feelings over her feelings in a sense that she would see me smile than herself smiling. Because once she see my smiles, she’ll smiles. I couldn’t stop telling myself that, maybe both of us had reach a no turning point, a situation that there is no going back, no reset button, no second chance would do and no starting all over again. Once again, she is not afraid of losing me...